An Original Work of Fiction - A Battle Lost and Won

A battle lost and won

I’ve loved and lost

I’ve loved and won

Such is the conclusion I came to in my battle in this simple but 

complicated feelings called love.

Going back in time to more than twenty odd years ago seems like a lifetime away 

but yet, feels also just like yesterday

I’ve loved hard and deep and when I let go of that love,

I thought my world ended

Well, I was wrong.  My world didn’t end. 

It was a chapter of my life that came to an end and since then I

 have written many more chapters.

But time and again, I find myself revisiting that time

The time when I thought I’ve loved and lost

I was twenty four and he was thirty one

I was young and naïve and he was the man of the world

I was intrigued by him, he was captivated by me

The girl who drank Jack Daniels and knew about war aircrafts 

and read about espionages.

He introduced me to stuff unknown to me and taught me golf and

how to have confidence in myself

The girl who never wanted anything else from him 

except he himself.

But it came to an end.

I ended it because he wasn’t mine to have and certainly wasn’t mine to keep.

Time and again when I revisit that time

I ask myself what if I said yes instead of no, what if I had agreed, 

would I have won the battle or would I have lost the war?

And much as I wanted the outcome to be different, 

I knew that it was the right decision made.

For at the end of the day, I need to be able to face the girl in the mirror.

Cutting ties and saying good bye and wishing that you have a good life, 

left a scar in my heart.

The scar that has since healed but will always be there.  

The connection severed but the lingering fragmented feelings hovers on

Just as the memory of the girl who drank Jack Daniels 

with her dreams and hopes.

I’ve loved and lost. I’ve loved and won.

Disclamer : 

This is a work of fiction.

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